Brick Wall

Often times when I am alone for a little too long I start to look into my life a little bit too in depth. I usually go on a walk and talk to God, I feel stuck...It's weird because my life is going soo great and then I just realize that I feel like I can't go anywhere with my relationship with Christ... and I don't know why. It's like I all the sudden hit a brick wall, it just appeared out of NO WHERE and it's too high for me to climb. I have to slowly make a hole and go thru the wall, but it takes a lot of work and it's not easy...it's soo difficult.

Well I am at that point right now...ever since I got back from a local High School Christian camp, I've just felt stuck. I didn't get the "camp high" that everyone got, I didn't feel "on fire" I just felt the same...I think I am past the point in my spiritual maturity of camps and stuff...maybe not but I just feel at a different level, and that should be a good thing, but it's just confusing. I want to be where every other high schooler is...yet I love having an AMAZING relationship with Christ, I don't know. But I've hit that brick wall and I have to slowly make my way thru it...it's taking a long time, it's taken a lot of work, and it's painful.

This is a point in my life where I really just need to trust in God, that's all I really can do, so that's what I will do.

Peace Friends.

Condemnation or Love?

John 3:17

" For God did not send his Son int othe world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him."

One of the most painful things for me to see is my christian friends talking to non christians, trying to tell that the "good news" in a way that is ONLY condemnation. I look at that situation and don't know how to respond, when I am condemned I turn the other direction because I don't like people to point fingures at me, and I'm pretty sure that is how a lot of people feel.

I was sitting in a local coffee shop the other day reading. I saw a piece of paper in the chair and picked it up, unfolded it and read it, here's what it said:

Are you a good person?
Well, think about it. You've lied, which makes you a liar, and everyone's stolen, which means their a thief. You're not looking too good, are you? Well, here's another question:
If you died tonight, and were judged by God, would you be sent to heaven...or hell?
Keep in mind that you are guilty of only two of the ten commandments so far. Yep, there's eight left. And if God is good, he is also Just.

And this went ON AND ON AND ON! My first reaction was ANGER, my second, exactly the same, my third, like wise, and my forth still mad...I wish that people would want to preech the word because they LOVED someone so much that they wanted them to get the oppertunity to have a relationship with someone that TRULY loved them, unconditionally, not to scare them out of their mind so that they go into this relationship out of fear, or reject it completly. I wish some Christians wouldn't do the whole pointing their figures, hypocryticle thing it's so painful to see. Heck I'm not saying that I do everything right, on the contrary I screw up EVERY time I try to do something right, but this "method" just doesn't sit right with me. I feel like Jesus told us to follow what he tought, and he didn't teach condemnation and guilt, he tought love, forgivness, mercy, peace, etc.
These are just my thoughts.