Live it out

There are so many people
Who have changed what they believe
They forget what they love
And no longer have a care

How can a passion disapear
And how can a loved one be forgot?
How can a life take a 180
Without a single thought?
How can we love so much
And then forget what we got?

I see this happening all around
I see this and my heart falls on the ground
I want to shout out
I want to make it stop.

So I promise that
I wont be that person
Who forgets about their passions
I wont be that person
Who leaves a friend in the dust
I wont be that person
Who has dreams that they forget
I wont be that person
Who forgets what she says.

The people we look up to
They never forgot that they had a passion
And they lived that passion out
So instead of wishing you were that strong
Live out your passion
And maybe people will look up to you?

Pasifism...

The past few months I've been thinking a lot about being a pasifist. I am part of a pasifist chruch, Quaker, and ever sinse I started going there I've thought of myself as a pasifist, but now I'm starting to think about what that actually means.
People often say "Oh you're a pasifist, well would you have killed Hitler, if you had the chance?" or "What if someone comes to your house with a gun and is going to kill your family, will you just stand back and let them?" I don't know what it is about other people trying to prove that pasifism isn't real, but I guess that's just what we have to deal with. Both of these questions are hard to answere, but not impossible. If I ever find myself in either of those situations then I would hope that I would react in a way that would be the most peaceful, but I can't honestly tell you what I would do because I've never been in a situation like that. I think there are other ways to stop someone from killing your family than killing them emediatly.

I think it is also hard to look at the world we live in and honestly believe that I can live peacefully and that the world will come to peace, but I do believe that, I truly do. I think that it's really hard for people to look at a pasifist and look at them realisticly, because there isn't much hope for peace now days, but I assure you that I am a realist AND I am a pasifist...It can be done.

I think the reason that I'm so passionate about trying to live a peaceful life is because there is so much war and violance in this world and I don't see ANY good that comes from it. Yes countries gain land, and people gain freedome, but at the same time hundreds, thousands, and millions of people die, and I don't think that it's worth it. If we just figured out a way to peacefully agree, I feel things would go better. And maybe the agreement wouldn't work, but AT LEAST make the steps toward being peaceful, and saving thousands, if not millions of lives...

I don't see any good in killing ANYONE...I really don't. I don't care if they have killed thousands of people, killing them is only hypocracy.

I will say that just because I have chosen pasifism for ME it doesn't mean that I'm saying that EVERYONE needs to be a pasifist, this is MY choice for MY life, not yours.

So Peace friends and God bless

Looking Back

Looking back...
They say don't do it
You'll hit the future in the face
And regret it in the end

Looking back...
They say that it's the only way
Reflection is the key
You need to see what you went through

Looking back...
I now see the significance of those moments
Those late night conversations
And the never ending tears

Looking back...
I know it was needed
It was a way to grow
A way to take a step forward

Looking back...
I'm actually please with what I see
I did what I wanted to do
I said what I wanted to say

Looking back...
I know that I have come a long way
I know that I have a long way to go
I know that I will keep on walking

Looking back...
I see the truth in your eyes
I see the all the painful lies
And the wet tears in your eyes

Looking back...
Looking back is the only way that I know I can look ahead...
So I'm looking back on this year
Only to be sure that I can look forward to the next.
Looking back.

A strange awakening...

It's strange, I feel that the closer I become to God, the more I ignore him, or maybe I'm just aware that I do it? Funny thing is, the more I try to ignore him, the more I see him. No matter what I do I can look back on my day and see him in little sperts, it's wonderful!

I'm a pretty busy person, I do a lot, and I don't feel that I have a lot of free time. This means that I don't always make it to devotions in the morning or middle of the night, but I've realized that I don't have to do these spiritual practices to be close to God. Yes they do make me think, and it is a good way for me to be intentional in my relationship with God, but no matter how much, or how little I do, or try to do, God is always going to be pursuing me...always. Now this doesn't mean that I need to let him do all the work, and just wait for him to come to me, because I want more than that. But it does show me that I have zero control over my life and how I want things to work...and that's okay with me...

Friends God is Good, He really is...

"The splendor of a King,
Clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice,
All the earth rejoice
He wraps himself in light,
And darkness tries to hid
And trembles at his voice,
And trembles at his voice

How Great is our God,
sing with me
How Great is our God,
and all who sing
How great, How great
Is our God

Age to age he stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the End,
Beginning and the End
The Godhead, Three in one
Father, Spirit, Son
The Lion and the Lamb,
The Lion and the Lamb

How great is our God,
Sing with me
How great is our God,
and all who sing
How great, How great
Is our God

Name above all names
You are worthy of all praise
and My heart will sing how great
is our God

How great is our God,
sing with me
How great is our God,
and all who sing
How great, How great
Is our God"
(2x)

Peace Friends

Temptation

Tempted...
By something so small
I wouldn't think twice about it.
Tempted...
By something that doesn't matter,
What would it do?
Tempted...
To go a little farther
Than I would if I was thinking of You.
Tempted...
To a differnt point
Than is thought possible
Tempted...

He digs into my heart
To find what I long for the most.
He digs into my mind
To see how I will fall for it.
He digs deep into my soul
And tells me it is alright...
He digs and he digs and he hits the spot.
I fall and I fall and I fall
Because I was Tempted...

I'm on my knees
Asking for another chance,
Because I did it again
But it's the last glance...
I know I'll be stronger next time that I'm
Tempted...
Tempted.

Next time I'll fight it off.
I'll be aware that I'm
Surrounded by angels
To help me shout out
To help me doubt what i'm being told...
I will not longer be
Tempted...

Yet I'm human,
I trip
I fall
I do it all over agian
I remember how small I am.
I am forever Tempted...

Tempted
By what I know isn't true...
Tempted
Will You help me through?
I'm Tempted
And I actually need You.
Help me when I'm
Tempted...

Moments...

It's the moments when you feel like life is perfect,
That God decides to challenge you...
You don't know what went wrong
Or when everything changed.
Things are all the sunden confusing
It's really very strange.

And it's the moments when you are least expecting it,
That He decideds to call on your name...
When you are walking down the street,
Music blaring in your ears.
His voice speaks out,
And you can't belive what you hear.

And it's the moments where you "don't need him,"
That you realize how much you really do...
You thought you had it all together
Thought you could live on your own
Then you realize how much you need
When you talk to a friend on the phone.

And it's the moments when you feel like you are worth nothing,
That God decides to challenge you with something...
It's such a great task,
One thing you would have never dreamed of.
You know it's right,
Yet you can't leave those you love...

And it's the moments like these
That you know God is real.
There isn't a doubt in your mind
With everything that you feel
He's so damn real.

And it's moments like this
That scare me the most.
I actually have to go on that adventure
The one he's called me to
The one that I've been avoiding
Because I know it's true.

And it's moments like these
When you realize that you're friends are there.
And now you have to leave them
Behind where they belong
Your paths are spliting
And you sing your own song.

It's the moments like these
When you have to break down and cry
You don't want this to happen
You'd even rather die.
But you said you'd go where you don't know
And it's time for that to show...

-September 29, 2007

Are you ready for some football?!?!?!

My big brother's frist football game of the season was today, it was pre-season out of league against Western, but it was awesome. My big brother is number 36 for the Linfield Wildcats, he plays on special teams, and should be running back any game now. I have watched every single one of his games since he started playing in middle school, I was even his ball girl until he made Varsity in high school. The only games I've missed have been in his college career, and he was either in a different state, or was hurt, and not playing.

Anyway I got to see him play again tonight and it was fun. They didn't win, but it was football, with my family, watching my big bro.

Can't wait till next week, HOME GAME!